High School Reunions

Today I took the day off from being “Mom” to my two seven year old sisters and went to visit my High School friends. Let’s just say it’s 10:27pm and I’m still processing. SO much has changed. I have changed so much. Going back, it was just so, well, High School. Don’t get me wrong, I loved it! It was so much fun, but at the same time, it was so crazy. I felt so changed. I felt so much older. I felt so much more experienced and mature. I sure don’t miss the drama. I sure don’t miss the hurt, or the pain. No, I don’t miss High School. So why am I  working with Senior and Junior High this summer? I didn’t really know before, I just felt lead, but I know now.  I want to make sure that no one felt the way that I did in High School. I want to show them the love of Jesus, and the worth they can find in HIS eyes. I want to show them that there’s more to life, and that God is bigger, and greater then anything. There IS a reason for living, and His name is Jesus.

Every once and awhile it’s nice to be random…

I ask a lot of questions. I have a lot of questions that I don’t ask. I question anything, and everything. Why? How? When? Where? What? Who?-These questions are a part of my normal vocabulary. Perhaps this is why Todd Agnew’s new CD called out to me from the shelves of Family Christian Bookstore while I was trying to find something to buy with my Gift card. His shirt on the CD cover is white, and he has written different questions in black marker. Questions range from “Am I lovable?” to “What is beauty” to “What if Jesus meant everything He said?”

I’ve always been taught that we should accept the will of God, no matter what happens, that we should not question Him because His plans are high above ours, which I agree with….but in the same line, by asking my questions, my faith has been strengthened. I desided to make a list of some questions that I had about the Bible, Jesus, Religion, Faith, Life-whatever, I was surprised at how many I came up with in a limited amount of time! I’m hoping to talk some of these over with some of my friends, and dare to ask things that I haven’t before. I’m excited. What are some of your questions? 

After listening to Paul Washer I have been reading the book of 1st John. I have been doing things differently then I normally do when I read the Bible. This time I actually take the time to write down my questions, and journal my thoughts about what I am reading, instead of just reading through. I am finding this very moving, and much more thought provoking.

I’ve been doing a lot more saying goodbye this week, as well as reuniting with some friends who I have not seen in awhile. I am looking forward to hopefully meeting with two “Moses’s” (Leaders) in my life this following week, as well as maybe stopping by the pool to sniff some chlorine and see my coach, and friends.

Today was absolutly BEAUTIFUL. We’re talking temperatures up to 68 degrees. I took a walk at the park, close by our house. I was looking forward to some time alone, away from the noise. My park is my get away, I go there as much as I have time for, and when I feel like writing poetry, or journaling. It’s typically quiet. Today it was a madhouse. I went there to get away from my little sisters, and there were little kids scattered all over (okay, maybe only four but it’s a tiny park with two park benches!) So much for my “quiet” time. I kept on walking instead of waiting there, and ended up at home with the window open. It was so beautiful-I’m so ready for Spring although it is still January!

Alright, I’m out. I’m sorry for the lack of deepness in this post-I’m feeling so randomly shallow today, except my head is swirling with questions!!